Why?

I'm curious why I have such bad luck, why all the bullshit happens to me, am I bad luck or something? Or am I just a bad person? I don't get why things happen the way they do, why things get out of control, it doesn't make sense to me. Why am I still here? What's keeping me alive? What would I end up like if I didn't have amazing family & friends? Who knows, I'd probably be a hooker. Life is just one question; why? For me, at least.