Long Time No Blog

I know, I fail, I'm sorry. I was trying my best to be on top of blogging and everything, but then so much drama happened and all. I think I'll make this post rather long, since I just feel like spreading by business... lol.

So, the following events have happen:

-I've gone from engaged to single in one month
-I found out the doctors fucked up on my due date: baby's due NEXT month not April! D:
-I chose a baby name
-I found out the Jake (my ex-fiance) is moving to a whole different state being Colorado
-I've decided to move to Wilmington Carolina when the baby is born
-I've been informed that I'm "incredibly amazing" at dealing with teenagers appropriately

ANYWAY... I'll explain them.

So about this whole engaged and now single thing... well starting about eh... last month, Jake and I started having trouble in our relationship. We started fighting almost every day (about stupid things, too.) I'd apologize and all even though I knew that the whole fight was not my whole fault, but he'd stay angry at me. Then we started to drift apart, and he said "Jess, I love you a lot, but I think we need a little break. I'm not breaking up with you; but I'm going to Denver for a couple of weeks, okay? Call me if you need anything." That was just him being nice. *Sigh*. Then when he came back, he said to me "You're not the Jess I fell in love with. You've changed, and I don't like it. I'm moving to Colorado to be closer with my family, I'll still be in the baby's life, I know this will be difficult but we'll make it work, sorry." He said this over e-mail first, and then came to talk to me. DOUCHEBAG ALERT!?!?! Something tells me that if he's moving to Denver Colorado then he's not really going to be in the baby's life; if he really cared and he really wanted to be, he'd at least stay somewhere in California. Maybe I'm overreacting, but that's my opinion. So now, I'm going to be a single mother, but hopefully a kickass one! Hopefully. Damn it, I always do something to screw up relationships. Sure I've changed... but a good change... maybe he means I've changed because now I'm fat and not as pretty and more hormonal than usual. :/

I went to the doctors not too long ago and they ran some more tests on me, and discovered that they had fucked up my due date when they first told me my due date! They originally said April 23rd, but then they said "I'm sorry, we've made a mistake. Your daughter is due on March 2nd." WTF!? Fail much!? If I ever have another baby, I'm switching doctors, actually I think I'll just switch doctors. So I'm due in less than a month... wow... that's scaring the hell out of me. I can't wait, but I'm really scared! Thank God I have amazing friends and family for support.

I've decided to name my daughter (yes, I'm having a baby girl!) Charlotte Rose, I like the name! Rose is my Aunt's name whose always been there for me no matter what, like when I was a teenager and had issues with my parents she'd always let me come stay with her, and I could talk to her about anything! When I told her I was naming my girl Charlotte Rose she started to cry, that's the first time I've EVER seen her cry. <3

After Charlotte is born, I've decided to move to Wilmington North Carolina. Most of your thoughts are probably along the lines of "Oh my God, One Tree Hill's filmed there! STALKER!" but that's NOT the reason I am moving there. My mom, 18 year old brother, and 18 year old sister moved there a couple of months ago. It's kind of a win and win situation here. My mom has offered to help me out with Charlotte because she knows how stressful it will be for me considering my age and how I won't have Jake for support, but she's also having issues getting through to my sister and controlling her. My mom says that I'm really good with her and that I'm really the only person who can get through to her and that I'm a good role model for her, which is so nice. I'm really glad. So I'll help her with Mandi and Kyle, even though Kyle's not as much as a problem.

SO, that about sums everything up?

Oh, one last thing....

I'm not accepting friend requests on my other account (Jess Dawson). It's still private! <3

Love,
Jess