Personality. It Matters.

I don't care what men think or what women think or what the "rules" of beauty are, because the only rule in my book is that beauty lies within you, inside of you not on the outside.

I know that looks do matter and they always will in a relationship, that no matter what you say or do you're always going to partially judge your partner depending on their looks (but mainly their personality I'd hope,) but I still think it's cruel, that there are some low-lifers out there who only date the bleach-blondes with the Double D cup bras, and the fake boobs, and the nice legs and the spray tans. Honestly?

What I find beautiful, is intelligence, class, and inner beauty. Personality! Don't judge someone because of their looks, or their boob size, judge them from what's on the inside.

Music has always been important to me, ever since the day I was born. I remember when I was little, my parents would play their Led Zeppelin, The Beatles, The Rolling Stones, Crosy, Stills, & Nash records... I'd be dancing around in my pajamas, absolutely loving it.

It's like Peyton says' on One Tree Hill; A certain song can instantly change my mood, whether it's uplifting, sad, or angry. When I'm mad, sad, or happy, I turn to my best friend who I know will never fail me, my iPod. Is that sad? That there's really only one thing in this world I have to rely on and trust? An iPod? Well that's too bad if you think it's sad, because it's the truth.

Music speaks to me... I don't know how and I don't know why. But I love it.

"Truthfully, there's no such thing as perfection"

It's been a really amazing last few months, let me just tell you. I know most of you probably already know, but I'm a mom! I have Charlotte Rose Mayfield,who's now three months old, almost four! She was born on March 7th, and my friends and family were alongside. She's gorgeous- apparently, she looks like her mother ;)

I still live in Los Angeles, of course. I decided not to take the job in New York since I personally don't want to raise Charlotte there... maybe I'll take it in a few years, who the hell knows!
And I was going to move to North Carolina, but things are under control now and there's no point in me really going there, except to go to One Tree Hill set... which I could if I wanted to do so, since I have... connections lets just say... but I don't want to move their permanently. I'll just go visit often!

I have a boyfriend now, his name is James, but that's all I'm saying! I like being secretive; it pisses people off! Tee-hee!

Overall, I'm incredibly happy, probably the happiest I've ever been in life to be honest. Everything is perfect, everyone is perfect, and for once I feel somewhat "perfect", even thought truthfully there's no such thing as perfection.

I haven't updated this thing since February, but I'll try and update at least once a week... I used to say I'd do that, and I've obviously failed... but anyway...

xo
Jessica